About a month ago, I was getting gas. The pump was moving so incredibly slowly that, while I’d love say, I was all zen and enjoying the present moment and just waiting patiently, I wasn’t. I was the opposite–irritated, impatient, and probably ungrounded to boot. I said to myself, “This is ridiculous. I’m going to stop this at $50.” Just then I noticed the pump slowing down even further and it stopped at exactly $50.00 even. “Wow, that was wild,” I thought.
The very next week we were heading out of town, so I decided to fill up in preparation even though the tank registered more than 1/4 full. This time the pump was going extraordinarily fast. I thought for a nano second, “wouldn’t that be hilarious if it stopped at $50 again?” But of course pushed that thought out instantly since there was about the same chance of that happening as winning the lottery.
You already know what happens next. Yep, it stopped at $50 on the dot! I was so filled with wonder and joy that I laughed out loud, incredulous at the “coincidence.” Of course, there are no coincidences so I just took it as a fun wink from the universe–a wink about what I had no idea, but I figured it meant something.
Two weeks later, I kid you not, I was pumping gas again. I can’t honestly say whether or not I was thinking about the $50 this time. I do remember that I was sitting in the car listening to my book du jour when I heard the pump click off. You can only imagine my total and complete astonishment when it was $50 exactly a third time and in less than a month! Now I was truly freaking out, in a good way, but still utterly perplexed. What are the chances?
Now I definitely had to get some outside perspective on what this meant so I asked one of my psychic friends to take a look. This friend is a big muckety-muck at an international firm so we exchange looks over email to accommodate our different schedules. Since it is convenient for me to cut and past it, I’ll share part of what she emailed…
50 is a personal test. You are testing your creation system to make sure you are indeed creating your life (something you don’t really trust at times or want to believe at times because dis-empowerment is easier. So you find ways to have the world play back your ability to create in little ways, reoccurring numbers, synchronicity, etc. Not significant because it is all from you, reflecting out in the world. My message here: YES you are a creator. It works. Play big and trust yourself. Do not model for the world, your loved ones your fear in creating!
I told this story to my oldest son on the way to school the next day and he replied, “mom, your credit card probably maxes out at $50 for gas.” Ugh,” I thought disappointed. That could very well be the explanation, especially since my purse had been stolen within the year. I had so wanted to believe it was my way of reminding myself that I’m a creator.
To my great delight, the next time I pumped gas, it went all the way up to $61 and change. What my friend had seen felt right and true to me so I was relieved that these “coincidences” couldn’t be explained away otherwise. You’d think I’d trust this process more since this is what I do for others, but you know the saying about the cobbler’s kids not having any shoes to wear… What a great reminder for me (all of us) to own my ability to consciously create and a nice knock on the head to sit down and meditate more, since you can’t create what you don’t know you want and meditation is the fastest way to get clear.
This post is too long already so I’ll continue the story in the next one. Until then, get out there and create big! Let’s inspire each other with how big we can play:)!